Thoughts that spin

6 million

2007-10-21T11:53:00.000-07:00

The silence reminds us
of the voices of them all
all the people were taken away
and most never came back

It seems so long ago
they were pulled away from this world
from houses and their lives
into trains that kept on rolling

Lives of young and old
gone through the worst of mankind
unhuman behaviour made them suffer
until 6 million were murdered

The smoke floats away
the rivers filled with ash
how hard it must be
for those who survived

6 million murdered

6 million murdered

Tell me why
tell me why
all these beautiful people
all had to die.

Yes, you.

2007-10-21T11:52:00.000-07:00

You were there
to show me how
all these things
in life make sense
I thought to never feel again
I thought it all was there before
but somehow you gave it all
back and now I feel so good
I switch off the light and go to bed
your face clearly in my head
I wake up and I think of you
and feel that my love now is true.

It could be you

2007-10-21T11:49:00.000-07:00

you're the reason
why I wake up everyday
so many people hurt me
so many friends went away
you're beautiful
as I wake up with you
I smile and look around
for once my heart feels warm
it's all these people that talk and tell
but no one really listens
to what anything we want to say.

Don't

2007-10-21T11:47:00.000-07:00

that one day at the bar
she said we tried and gave it our all
but really..did we?
our talks at the table
became a silence in the air
I look into her eyes
and see the passion has gone

So here we are now
years of build up
gone in one talk
time to let it go
It just hurts to know
when we were together
all we really were
was a growing distance

Don't try to justify
the words you just said
for all these years
you've been messing with my head
the bed we lay in
is now cold and lonely
the first kiss here
fading like an old picture

I try to get it right
I think I get it right
but all I see inside me
is the bitterness that you left.

Covers

2007-10-21T11:40:00.000-07:00

Fiction novels on a bookshelve
tell me more than I can imagine
the story behind the cover
is sometimes hard to understand
but I can't put you down
I can't figure you out
so please let me know
what are you all about.

Landscape

2007-10-21T11:39:00.001-07:00

"You're the landscape of my dreams".

Faded

2007-10-21T11:33:00.000-07:00

The bar is empty
but I still hold on
to that one thought
the hope of sharing
looking into my glass
pulling my cigarette
as my mind travels everywhere
except on happy trails
I see the fading colours
the polaroid that once was us
now a faded picture
in a box that used to hold my shoes.

Sea crash

2007-10-21T11:29:00.000-07:00

Spoiled and wasted
across the shore
no one knows
reasons for sure

tides come flooding
crashing the sand
is this the truth
or just a sleight of hand

one to many waves
crashing down my walls
should have taken the safe way
instead I choose to drown

floathing in my water
drifting through my sea
Sinking to the bottom
of all that used to be.

Unspoken

2007-10-21T11:20:00.000-07:00

We just sat there
looking at our plates
I asked if you wanted more wine
and all you did was shake your head no
words did not pass your lips
but I knew they would come

the silence filled the room
as I tried to hold your hand
you pulled it back and got up
I asked you to say it out loud
and then you said it all
the words still hurt me
and wonder what I did
to let it all come to this.

The other end...

2007-10-12T13:50:00.000-07:00

Someone tried to call me
I saw a number on the phone
I was afraid to answer
because the voice might be from you.

I walk into the bedroom
and drink a bottle of wine
I sit down and see your photo
how did we end up here?

It takes me back to that day
you were dancing on the beach
I didn't know what to say
and sat there hours watching you

That night changed it all
if only for a moment
I could have it back
That night changed it all
if only for a moment
I could feel that way again

So now I sit down
and hear the phone again
I am afraid for the voice
that's on the other end

I get up and walk away
listening to that sound
of the phone ringing
makes me feel so down

If I can just pick it up
and let go of my fears
I would hear you out
as I feel the love dissapear

Just one more time
to feel it all again
Just one more time
so I can keep you in my mind
that night changed it all

If only for a moment
I could have it back
that night changed it all
If only for a moment
I could feel that way again

Memories...

2007-10-12T13:46:00.000-07:00

I love how we are together
young and restless as we live
the thousand ways you smile
or the tone in your voice
when you say you love me
I can feel your fingers
running through my hair
your lips touching mine
our hips dancing with each other
as we make love all night
I can see us standing
on the roof of your appartment
looking over the city
in that summer breeze
as we promise to never let go
I can smell your skin
so soft to touch
and beautiful to see
or the way you held my hand
as we walk in the busy street
I can hear you walking around
in my appartment to get a drink
and hear the shower running
and get turned on by your wet skin
as you walk into the room
I can see you standing
in front of the mirror
as you brush your teeth
and put on your makeup
right before we go out
I can feel you laying
next to me in bed
and hear your breathing sooth me
I wrap my arms around you
and never want to let go
I can hear you talking
to wake me up and kiss my cheek
I get up to kiss you back
when I realise I can't
you died on a tuesday....